I NEED TO WRITE WANT TO WRITE GOT TO WRITE
JUST MAKES EVERY THING FEEL ALRIGHT—
NEVER UPTIGHT WHEN I SEE MY THOUGHTS ON PAPER
hard to think about what word I should save and use at another point during the message—
but what is it that I am trying to say?
What is it that I am trying to get across?
I will say that it is all interesting to me-- new to me—
a new found dislike for this transitional state that I am in…
not wanting to be alone but alone always… and to the point where I sometimes get lonely even though I have myself and will die myself & I always have my own back…
but what is that?
What is that when other people have more?
Not that it is something I am jealous of but it is a feeling that I am not ready to get used to the fact that I must ignore—
I can’t explore what someone isn’t interested in…
even back then I have never been an open book to be exact but I in turn was never one to judge a book by its cover—but yet read through its pages—
trying to understand what the pages are saying…
New chapters in my book are unfolding and there are things that I am holding – back from myself… keeping things from myself…
keeping things from you, you..
And yes well you too because the reality is… to me what does unleashing feelings on unsympathetic ears do?
No hearts and minds aren’t clear and what I am trying to say probably isn’t clear either but I am trying… & the more that I try the more confident I become in trying again…
Because I learn through failure.

There are a lot of wrong things in this picture--

However who defines them as wrong? Or right for that matter--

Truly everything happens for a reason & its not my place to figure out what those reasons are--

However, it is my place to accept those things as they are and not to count them out.

All I want to do is live life
I want to experience all that life has to offer me--