relax

I laid my eyes on you and immediately my body wanted to do the same with you but I held back,
Contained myself and conducted myself in a way that wouldn’t make you say
Oh, she’s fast…
Because im not…
Im human, I get hot and what not, but yo-
Its cool.
It means im alive and well.
Its unnatural to not have feelings…
natural to have needs and wants to be pleased
And I want to please you…
Something I will do
In due time

Im not going to rush into things-
In fact im content with swinging on swings and doing kiddie things just because I care
I care soooo much that im cautious and move your hands up when they are near there…
I have to show you im worth it- not easy
Because if I were easy it would be worthless to get to know me… pointless perhaps…

I have to see what type of man you are
What type of man you want to be
And how would ur life be if it includes me-
Freedom to express emotions, free to love, free to care…
And then as time goes by when my eyes look there and your hands are near there it will mean something
And u will let my eyes wander, and you think about letting your hands roam- you wont touch me… u will just breathe…
And I would come to you, near you, close to u… lay my head on your shoulder and put my hand on your chest…
Then you will know I care.