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I guess its normal to feel however your body leads you to feel
Normal to hurt and cry
Normal to not be understood-
Abnormal to sit and take it and fake it like everything is all good
Soo normal to just put a smile on and not deal with things like you should
Normal for me to feel inadequate- beneath you and know why
Trying for it to be normal for me to question myself why-
Why me and why do I feel the way I feel…
Questioning myself and my God constantly trying to figure out if its real
I don’t understand why things switch when emotions get high
I don’t understand why we cant work through things as humans and mature adults… why
Even as your heart gets heavy and you feel yourself about to cry
Don’t dry your eyes-
We’ve all been taught not to let ppl see you sweat but when you’ve met ppl in your life that you care about so much,
Its too much to have to cry alone—
Especially when they are your shoulder to lean on
And what happens if that shoulder breaks—
Instead of finishing out my feelings and trying to heal I immediately try to fix the shoulder
Umm interesting
I wonder why ppl try to front like everything is sooo easy once you establish friendships, and relationships and create beginnings…. Never anticipating the ends---
Truth is its easy to click as friends… hard to maintain the relationship
But if it were easy it wouldn’t last long because the true meaning would be lost.
If you fake as if everything is right and fight one night your through.
But if you honestly sit and talk it out with your boo that you claim to love it will bring you closer.
Its okay to cry but not ok for you partner not to ask why.
I think that’s ignorant
Everyone wants to be comforted and everyone make mistakes
Its what you do once you’ve made the mistakes—
Don’t make them again.

To be continued.